SORRY !!

today , I felt so sorry to someone ...
but , i don't dare to say sorry to him ..

when i online , he was online too ..
but , he just offline after few minutes ...
what happened??

i asked myself ...

is he avoiding me ?

or he just offline without any specific purpose ?

who knows ??

anyway , still felt so so so so sorry to him ...

i wanna post a sorry on my status at facebook ...

but , i don't dare to do so ...

at the end , i just post a ***** ***** ***** at there,

which mean sorry sorry sorry

*** , so sorry for u ..

sorry that i didn't keep my promise ...

sorry ...

i know that sorry might not be enough ,

but what i can do is just saying sorry ...

*** , sorry !!

ANTI-ST.JOHN

Today , i viewed the photo taken by someone during the ST.JOHN competition ...
my division got two team took part , one ambulance cadet n one nursing cadet ...
the ambulance cadet get 3rd place for their short case ...
although nursing team din get anything , but they are really good enough ...

Once a time before , I really enjoyed that I am a ST.JOHN member ...
I hold a post after two years joining ST.JOHN ... i was so proud that I am a ST.JOHN member ..
I really love to do all the ST.JOHN punya stuff with all my frenzzz especially WINZHI n WEI QIAN ...
but , the story change at the fourth year ...
WINZHI n WEI QIAN change to other division + my chairman is a gurl that i dun really can do things together with her ..
I hate the way she ask people to do things , then she tell the officer that she did that her own ... others people are not doing their jobs ... WHAT THE FUCK

I really hate it !!!!
beside her , my two frenzz that always do things together wit me , we together get crazy , happy , sad and so on .... had left me ...T.T
and now i become ANTI-ST.JOHN punya fellow ...
i dun like to attend all those stupid meeting , dun like to take part in all those activities , dun like to go to ST.JOHN HQ seeing those officer and so on ....
many people are curious , they asked me , aren't you love so much of ST.JOHN n always stay active on it ??
my answer is , yes , i WAS loving ST.JOHN n active on it , but not now ...
but i still feel happy when i seeing my junior , my members all are busying with the ST.JOHN stuff n I'm willing to help them too ... hahaaa

anyway , now my school life are almost at the end ... I will not in-charging our ST.JOHN division 17 anymore ...
someone asked me , are u going to join ST.JOHN VAD after that
my answer : NO
i'm not going to care about what is happening abut ST.JOHN , except if my juniors got problem then can find me la ... but i think they won't la ...

And now , I'm ANTI-ST.JOHN ...
although I'm still a little bit more loving ST.JOHN , a little bit more missing ST.JOHN activities , especially kawad ..hahaaa .. i really MISS kawad so muchhhhhhh ,hahaa ... and I misssssss my ST.JOHN frenzzzz so much much much much muchhhhhh ...
errrrmmmmmmmmm ... i also dunno how to express my feeling now ...
is so confusing ...
i now not really like ST.JOHN but yet I'm missing all the things i had done in ST.JOHN ...
T.T .... whats the suck feeling is this ... haizzzzz ...

TAN YUN FEI , just dun think toooo muchhh baaa ... cheerrrrrr ... ^^ ( this is what i'm telling myself all the time )

OLD TOWN ^^

Today , again i went to old town to have my breakfast ... haha ...
I went there together with my daddy n mummy ^^
this is the fourth time i go to old town in these two months ... hahaaaa
I'm really old town supporter ... hahaxxxx

Oh ya , just now , i have received a letter from MSU ...
i'm thinking should i go register for that ...
this making me headache ...
because , SPM are almost going to the end , around 14 days more ...
but , I not yet decide where should I go after SPM n what should I do after SPM ...
SPM !!! u making me mad ... u making me worried before n after u ... isshhhhhh
I'm now thinking ...........

Happy ^^

Today , finally i have finished my BM ,ENGLISH n HISTORY exam...
this simply means that there is no more bm nor history in my life(if i din take form 6 ) ... hahaaaaaaa

Today during the sejarah exam , i can feel that this sub is killing sub for everyone ...
however , for me , this sub didn't kill me at all compare to a more scary sub i ever met , which is BIOLOGY
but , no matter how la , i will still study hard to score in this killing sub

Somehow , i really feel happy because 3 subs have passed , n i now only left 7 more subs to go , which is equal to 14 days to go .. haha

a stupid thing i did before i sit for my SPM is that : when everyone was nervous for their exam , i was happy countdown-ing 17 days to finish my exam ... it is so noob .. lolz

Anyway , i will still continue work hard for my SPM n hope to get a good result for it la .. haha ...

Ohya , one more thing , today , some one has write about me in his blog ... lolz ... dunno what feeling should i have but quite happy to know that ... haha ...
I am more shock when i saw there have my picture inside .. lolz ...
besides that , there is one more cute cuteeeee pic there ... i love that pic so mucchhh .... thankkksss my friend , megat amirul ... ^^
thank youuuuu soooooo mucchhh ^^

here is the cuteee cutieee pic he post for me , shre wit u ^^

yesterday i took part in a basketball competition ..
my team lost ...
i fall down during the comp n get two lebam .. huh
but then i enjoy playing basketball ...
tomorrow will be one more match .. yupi ..
hope my group will win la

n today , i as a st.john member help to paint the school wall ..
although is tired , but we do have fun ...
we playing with the paint ..
i chasing my fren around the school wit the purpose to put some paint at their faces ...
it's fun ...
but then , later tomorrow i will have many enemy when i go to school .. haha ...
scarad but still fun .. haha

some more , today , everyone are busying checking whether they are in the plkn name list o not , included me ...
i was so happy when i get know tat my name wasn't in the name list ...
but then , some one told me tat it is not true ... we need to check it again ... haiz ...
hope so i din get involve in the plkn la ...
n hope so i can win the basketball comp tomorrow ...
nite nite ... zzzz

i'm not in the right mood now ... haiz ...
i'm thinking of too many things ...
but non of it is tat i can get a answer from anyone ...
it looks like i have many thing to share ,,,
but when i was start typing , everything is confused in my mind ,,,
i start dunno wat can i write on here ..

the feeling is so shit ...
how good if i can control my own feeling all the times ???
haiz ... who can help me ?? i think is only myself ..

happy week

this few days ,many many things happen in my life ...
some make me happy , some make me sad ,some really make me excited , n also some make me feel angry ,
some even make me can't sleep all the night ...
but , i'm still feel happy that all this thing happened in my life ...
thanks GOD

from all these things , i MIGHT learn something from it ...
now , i'm really happy that i'm still alive ...
accompanying my family , my friend ...

I REALLY REALLY FEEL HAPPY IN THIS FEW DAYS ... ^^

now only i realize tat i'm damn stupid ...
really regret .. haiz

YOU

i feel sad when i din receive any msg ...
i feel sad when u din send any msg for me ...
i feel sad when u din comment on my post at facebook ..
i feel sad if u stop asking me can i be ur bf ??
i feel sad if u wont sms or call me anymore ..
i feel sad if u don't care about me anymore ..
i feel sad if u don't like me anymore ..
n i feel sad if u don't wish to become my bf anymore ...
i feel sad because of this , because of that ...
all the sadness come to me , just because of u ...


i can't be your gf because :
i'm not in the suitable age too be in couple wit anyone
i'm not allow to be in couple
i'm not confident wit u n me
i'm not willing to concentrate on my study if i couple wit u
n i scare tat u r not loyal ...
i'm worry about tis n tat


but if one day i'm allowed to be in couple ,
i will say tis IMMEDIATELY :
yes , u can , you can be my bf , n i wish to be your gf too ...

知足常乐，这句话我相信每个人都应该听过的...可是又有多少个人能做到这一点呢？？而我就是其一，直到也很明白这句话，可是却从来没做到。。

有时我们常常会埋怨这埋怨那，可是我们却没想到我们现在所拥有的已经很多了。。这世上有更多人比我们更不幸的人啊!!!

今天我妈妈和妹妹到一间收养弱智小朋友那儿做慈善，我本来打算要和他们一起去的，后来因为起不了床，所以没跟上。。妈妈回来后告诉我一个故事，是真人真事噢。有个女孩，大概20++，他很奇怪，他坐着时，他的身体总是往前后摇晃，摇个不停。。 后来才得知她为什么会这样。。

原来阿，可怜的他是在单身家庭成长的，从小，妈妈就地去工作抚养他，因为要工作的关系，妈妈没时间照顾她，又没有亲戚朋友可以帮帮忙，留在家里，妈妈又害怕女儿会被坏人抓，会被人强奸。。在必不得已的情况下，头脑好像也有点弱智的妈妈竟然选择把女儿关在家后的鸡农里。就这样一关，就关了十九年。后来才被好心人士发现，把他们两母女送进这间收养所，可女儿的一举一动就完全和鸡一样了

所以，我们应该知足常乐

今天，我看了一本书，突然觉得我好希望自己是这本书里的一个人哦。。看了这本书让我觉得有些事情真的是要靠自己去把握，去争取每一个机会的。一旦错过了，就会让自己终身遗憾。。。想到这里时，我觉得后悔总比遗憾好多了，因为有后悔代表我至少已经走了第一步。。。

每一次当要做一件事或一个决定是，我终是会考虑这考虑那，到最后取什么没做到。T.T

argh...我这种性格到底几时才改得掉啊？？？我每次都告诉我自己“做吧做吧，没什么好怕的，大不了给人家笑笑而已”可是到最后我还是眼睁睁的看着那机会从我身旁擦肩而过，过后才觉得“哎呀，我应该把握那机会的啊”可是，机会就是没了。。

haiz ,真希望我有一天真的可以学会把握每一个机会，让自己每天都不会有遗憾，每天都过的更充实。。 陈韵妃，加油吧！！！